Considerations

I'm sitting at a crossroads, wondering which way to go.

On the one hand, I have the collection of gig work that I have assembled for myself this year. This opens the door for more art-related work in the future and the possibility of really getting Twitching Eye Studios on its feet.

On the other hand, I have a requirement for my current college funding that says I have to work two consecutive years in a public school starting after I graduate in December. If I don't, then I will need to pay back the scholarship.

So do I do what I've agreed to do and go back to the public school system, or do I pay back the scholarship and stick with my gig work? The two years I already worked in public school were among the most stressful of my entire life, and the variable schedule of gig work seems to work for me. However, I'm not sure how much money I would have to pay back for the scholarship if I don't return to the public school system.

I also have this baby business here. Part of me thinks I'm delusional for wanting to grow the business because my art, honestly, isn't as good as my competitors', and the other part just wants to work for myself. Do I put in the time and effort knowing that I may still fail or do I write off the dream? It'll surely get more expensive before (and if) it turns a profit.

Without getting too detailed, I do have limitations that affect my energy levels and focusing capability. This just means that whatever I choose, I will have to work harder than average to make it work.

I'm not sure which way to go.